Although I stood next to two compete stiffs, and didn’t have anyone else with me, I still had an awesome time. @phantogram puts on such an awesome and energetic performance. I love them so much! Can’t wait to see them again!

Although I stood next to two compete stiffs, and didn’t have anyone else with me, I still had an awesome time. @phantogram puts on such an awesome and energetic performance. I love them so much! Can’t wait to see them again!

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Pyramid Song

confsuion:

There was nothing to fear
Nothing to doubt

This is one of those songs where if you stop paying attention, you lose the beat and shit gets really trippy really quick. I love it.

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Embracing the sadness

Today I watched Louie c.k. talk about the human condition where we now rely on our mobile devices to keep us from feeling lonely or sad. Louie mentions that most of us, when we get that little feeling of sadness or loneliness, we reach for our phones to message people or play a game or whatever that will keep us from feeling sad. Louie says we need to embrace this feeling now and again to keep us human and morally aligned. I believe it.

Different thought now…

I don’t fell like I’m coasting through life, I feel more like I’m slowly falling out of the sky.. Trying to find a branch or something to grab on to that will help keep me from missing the ground and hitting rock bottom.

Or maybe it’s more like a bottomless pit of obligations and expectations I’ve take on or believe I have to live up to. I’ve got to find something to keep me from falling. Gotta find a way to start climbing my way back up out of this hole.

My father has told me on several occasions that I take one step forward and three steps back a lot. This is a super discouraging and shitty thing to say. But well… I guess part of me believes that is actually what is happening… But maybe I’m stepping backwards so much because something inside me is trying to go in a different direction? That has to be it. This is life! No matter which direction you’re going in, there is something for you… Like… Think positive here. That metaphor can super easily be turned around.

I was never one to be terribly optimistic. And I suppose I never will be.

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I think I’m less cynical when I’m drunk. So I guess that makes me a loveable drunk but to others I’m just like “normal”

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