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Landscape Photography by Cody William Smith
Tying to reconcile the last six years of my time in college. I really believe that I’ve pissed away these last six years. There is no reason for me to not be happy with what I’m doing. There is no reason for anyone to be upset with what they are working towards. If you aren’t happy with what you are doing, change. Do something different.
I’ve been stuck doing this because of the years I’ve had with parents and my own actions. I usually just give up on things I start out. Now I see that wasn’t a terrible idea. I wasn’t good at those things I attempted. Yeah, I’m a pretty capable dude and was able to accel at most shit. But there comes a point where I hit a wall with things, and if I can’t get past that wall, why continue? Isn’t that the literal definition of insanity and/or hitting your head against a wall? TURN AROUND. DAMNIT. DO SOMETHING ELSE. FIND SOMETHING YOU DO WELL AND ARE ACTUALLY PASSIONATE ENOUGH ABOUT TO PUSH THOUGH.
Fuck me. I’ve reached a point where I’m literally 90% complete on this degree in electrical engineering. And I just want to give up. I don’t care about this degree anymore. I used to be very passionate about electronics. Six years being in windowless classrooms, sitting on my ass, pouring over equations, graphs, tiny-ass wires and various electrical components. I feel like I’ve had it. I’m over it.
Then again, I’m all about instant gratification. I bet I wouldn’t feel so salty about all of this if I were just making a boatload of money. Now that is a sad thought.
I know I can do it. That isn’t the problem. The problem is what comes from all of this. I just need to keep on going. Keep moving. I have like a semester left of this bullshit. Then I can go do whatever the fuck I want.